Recently I’ve been thinking a lot on how to juggle different aspects of my life. As of late it seems as though my friendships, career, relationship to myself and others have been struggling due to mismanagement. How do we balance the things we need and want to do? I have a bad tendency of being an extreme procrastinator (the first step is admitting, right?) and uncomfortably often I’ll wait till the last minute to get things done. It’s crazy to me that I know I can avoid the anxiety and stress if I just put time aside to work on whatever it is that needs to be done, BUT I DON’T? But hey, I’m not perfect and as much as I strive for perfection, I’m smart enough to know it’s impossible.
Now, I don’t have an answer to fix all our problems of curing chronic procrastination. This is more of a rant and open conversation to at least acknowledge the fact that it exists but it doesn’t have to rule us. This past week or so has been a very aggressive emotional rollercoaster for me for personal reasons and in those moments of stress, I feel as though I’m completely falling apart. I’ll want to lay in bed rather than go to my prior obligation, but then I’ll rush and be late and set a horrible tone for the rest of the day. Even thinking about it makes me nauseous. Granted, this isn’t the case every day but when it happens, it’s easy to set yourself up for an emotionally abusive conversation with yourself. Biiiiig no no.
The relationship that always comes first is the relationship with yourself. I’ve learned this the hard way and continue to learn it every day. No matter how hard we work for the relationship, body or job opportunity we desperately want, if we aren’t tending carefully to our core needs, our pursuit is less likely to succeed healthily. (Does that make any sense? Sometimes my rants feel more like rambles.) Obviously often times we have to push past our fears and do the things that scare us, which isn’t the most comfy feeling, but not having your mind and heart in the right place will always leave you needing more.
The way I try my best to juggle life and it’s craziness is by living in complete gratitude. I know this topic could easily make me sound jaded being that issues of mismanagement aren’t the worst issues to have, especially with the issues that are happening in the world right now, but not handling them correctly can lead to a farrrr worse problem. I think we get stuck trying to abide by an idea of our perfect life that’s too unrealistic for even US to fit in. Being the occasional type A that I am, I’ve devised an outline of priorities in my journal that I think will help me from going anymore insane. Hopefully this will help put things in a different perspective for you.
- Treating myself with the respect and love I expect and give the ones I love will help prioritize my well being. I am the one who has to live with myself every second of every day, so I may as well be kind and mindful of what I truly need. A small dose of selfishness is good for the soul. I will not be afraid to openly voice the things I need to continue living in peaceful harmony with myself.
- Work is important, there’s no doubt there, but one day I’ll be retired, old and only partially wrinkly (one can hope) and the friendships I hold closely to my heart now will be the things that’ll last forever. I’ll take risks, work really fucking hard and prioritize my work life, but I won’t let that stop me from taking a moment to appreciate the beautiful souls in my life and make time for them. There is always time for the ones who show you unshakeable love and loyalty.
- If I don’t get things done in time, there isn’t anything I can do about it except strive to have a different outcome next time. I’ll take the lessons I’ve learned, apply them, then let them go. All they are are lessons, they don’t need to be burdens. BE GONE BURDENS.
- The decisions I’ve made in the past all have led me to here. Through all the procrastination, laziness, determination and hard work I’ve put in, THIS is my current situation and I am happy! Clearly what ever is meant to happen will happen, but from here on out I’m changing my approach and moving forward with a different attack plan that doesn’t include procrastination or frustration with myself. Only love, forgiveness, patience and a lot of hard work.
How do you balance your life? HAVE A TETE-A-TETE WITH ME & leave your thoughts in the comments below! ♥